i think pregnancy has begun to rear its ugly head.  Last night, after dinner i sat on the couch for a few minutes to let my food settle.  With my kids running around and playing, i feel asleep!!  All of a sudden i woke up half an hour later.  My hubby was so sweet, he covered me up, turned off the lights and took care of bed time.  i could not drag my butt off the couch to get some much needed work done.  Kevin got me a pear to try to calm my tummy and i ended up in bed a whole hour early!  This morning, i struggled to get my son ready for school and just as he and Kevin were about to walk out the door, i ran to the bathroom to get a clear view of the inside of the toilet (man, i need to clean that thing again!).  He was so kind and waited until i emerged from the bathroom teary eyed thus leaving a few minutes late.  He offered to come home after he dropped Chandlur off at preschool.  i told him i would be ok and would call him if i needed anything.  Although i just wanted to scream, “stay home so i can go back to bed!”, i knew he needed to go to work (why does life have to revolve around money??)
No one ever really talks to you about the ugly side of pregnancy.  It’s all about the baby when you start feeling them, how big they are, hearing the sweet little heart beat, and the most exciting 20 week ultrasound.  They don’t tell you, most of the population is prone to stretch marks (i am already saving for plastic surgery) and the creams and potions don’t really work, sometimes morning sickness isn’t only in the morning and it can last the whole pregnancy.  They fail to mention there is a period when you just feel fat, when your old clothes are tight and maternity clothes are too big (and you look like you are gaining weight, not with child).  When i was pregnant with my first, i thought i was having a miscarriage.  No one ever told me cramps were normal and sometimes you feel the ligaments stretching (thankfully i ran across a book that explained it all).  To my childless girlfriends, i explain it’s like having a bad period with some throwing up.  To all the men in my life, i explain it’s like having a horrible flu.
Don’t get me wrong, i am amazed that a baby can grow from these little tiny cells.  Pregnancy can be special and truly amazing!  i guess right now, a little more than 9 weeks in, i’m stuck at the fat (with each pregnancy i seem to show sooner and sooner) and toilet phase.  i am clinging on to the excitment of my first appointment next week (i think Kevin may be even more excited for it than i).